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the previous week has been the WORST WEEK for me. Got NOTHING fandomy accomplished, LJ was borked, didn't write or vote on pthon (thank fuck for the extension! i woulda managed it but uuuuuuugh it will be so much better now), totally blew off a beta promise i made (I SWEAR i'll get to it! really!), psmithery's been gone, malu's been MIA, all the stuff i promised i'd do craft-wise: NOTHIN, nothing on the never have i ever, jack. i even FORGOT about neville longbottom's birthday, but i guess since the whole world finally knows he's hot now, that's taken care of by all his new shiny fangirls. Even my laptop broke!!!! but I got that fixed lickety split. Protip: if your mac is broken, use one of your other... four computers (what, you don't have three or four zombie boxen and janky laptops lying around?) to suss out the problem for yourself, then march into the apple store about an hour before closing without an appointment at the genius bar, inform the guy you know what the problem is, have him take it after he goes "oh, yes, that is your problem" and then they'll get it fixed the next day because they'll just give it to the technician with direct instructions instead of some kind of diagnostic bullshit. And then it'll be fixed in like 24 hours.

may Neville & Harry's birthday weekend extravaganza herald in the dawning of a new age. or whatever.

basically all week between bouts of freaking out, crippling self doubt, loneliness, boredom and headaches, i've been reading extensive amounts of HP fanfic on my kindle, because i finally have started slapping that shit on there (with calibre and AO3 it's dead easy). But honestly I haven't really been enjoying so much what I've been reading. Does anybody have any Harry/Snape written POST DEATHLY HALLOWS, so essentially fixit fic wherein Snape has secretly been alive the whole time in australia or whatever? Or harry brings him back to life or shenanigans occur? And can Ron/Hermione be in the background for the love of god! Because I read so much Snarry wherein Ron and Hermione are not a couple and it is AGGRAVATING. For a multishipper, Ron/Hermione is as close as I get to an OTP. Rageface.

anyway. I'm gonna try to get back into the swing of things, starting now.


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Aug. 1st, 2011 01:56 am (UTC)
My god, you have completely fallen apart without me. Shall we make that a 4hr Skype sesh for bitching and whinging instead of just 2?
Aug. 1st, 2011 02:05 am (UTC)
you havent even heard the half of it.
i'm getting the impression more and more that i need you a lot more than you need me.

working on it.
Aug. 1st, 2011 07:54 am (UTC)


It's not fast enough to do skype-age or chat (I haven't even been able to download skype on my new laptop yet), but I am here. *clutches you*
Aug. 1st, 2011 08:07 am (UTC)
Aug. 1st, 2011 08:13 am (UTC)
Cannot cannot! I tried to connect a little while ago, but it didn't work. D:

Plus the mater is trying to ration my Internet use. You need to have words with her, methinks.
Aug. 1st, 2011 08:20 am (UTC)
the mater, as you call her, obviously does not possess all the facts.


I wonder why your chat is borked. is it just gmail, do you think, being dumb? because you could try AIM... or msn!

Ugh, well, part of what's been so terrible is that i've been DIURNAL. Like, waking up in the day, getting sleepy about 1am (which it currently is.) And oh my god when i'm nocturnal you know how i'm like WHAT EVEN IS MY LIIIFE, IF ONLY I COULD BE AWAKE DURING THE DAY ALL MY PROBLEMS WOULD BE SOLVED!!! ? Well fuck that shit. When i'm awake during the day all I see are HAPPY COUPLES and FAMILIES everywhere and BFFS doing stuff together and that makes me lonely and sad. And I'm not awake at the right times for my JOB, and I get weirdly DEPRESSED because my rhythm is off and going to sleep when it's dark out feels WRONG. Ack!

Anyway. I'm gonna putter around and read some of the snarry fic i've found via mabonwitch's suggestion and probably go to sleep UGH HORRIBLE. Maybe tomorrow things can be sorted? MAAAYBE? And we can TALK IT OUT, and I can talk to you about my ENNUI and my ANGST re: writing and authorial intent etc, and you can tell me about your HORRIBLE LIIIIFE and we can move on to better topics like PRINCE VERSE and how i've been incapable of touching it and MAYBE WE CAN GET BACK ON THAT HORSE WITH OUR POWERS COMBINED? etc.
Aug. 1st, 2011 08:30 am (UTC)
I was using pidgin, and it connected to my LJ chat, but it wouldn't talk to gmail. I don't uderstand it.

Part of the problem is that the only room I can access the Internet in is the mater's bedchamber. Thus, I cannot do sneaky, late-night interneting except on my phone. But I have just spoken to future housemates and I should be getting my keys on Wednesday. THINGS ARE HAPPENING. I'LL BE BACK SOOOOON.
Aug. 1st, 2011 03:15 am (UTC)
OH MY GOD DARLING *clutches, weeps, clasps to bosom* I've been having a worst week too, though probably not as worst as yours (?), and if only I lived round the corner then broken LJ/ RL/internets/computers/brains/self-esteem whathaveyou would not be keeping us apart.

No, I'd be hauling your ass out for sushi and bitching and cuddles (if consensual). Expect real e-mail soon, now that everything seems to be working again my end. Technologically speaking, that is. I can't speak to my brain and the rest of it.
Aug. 1st, 2011 04:23 am (UTC)

I need a RL friend SO BAD. so. so bad. We could make beautiful music together. I would even go to sportsball games with you. We could cook ridiculous foods and have funtime research rainy afternoons at the library and cuddly movie weekends and talk about deep important shit in real time and holidays wouldn't suck because it'd be assumed that we're doing stuff together and it would be great. GREAT.


Also please do let me know your woes and all that.
Aug. 3rd, 2011 10:44 am (UTC)

That sounds just about perfect. I will start working on becoming a Sounders fan ;-)

More in e-mail
Aug. 1st, 2011 03:26 am (UTC)
Darling, that's awful!

...if it helps at all, there's a Snarry Fix-It fest going on right now at snapepotter? I expect whole chunks of it are Snape-lives stories.
Aug. 1st, 2011 04:19 am (UTC)
oooh really? I stay FAR FAR on the fringes of HP fandom. I basically ONLY read other people's recs and occasionally go on absolute archive binges. The fandom is so wanky and immense that I am concerned about the vicarious sadtimes if I go spelunking in it. But I am SO gonna check the HELL out of this fix-it fest. Yes yes YES.
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