When we conceived of the whole Sophia thing, I was sort of psyched at the prospect of trolling the shit out of our readers. Like obviously I don't mean it in a malicious way, but the people who read these fics exclusively for a WHAM BAM THANK YOU MAAM FLUFF EXPERIENCE probably weren't gonna appreciate it, you know? (I am definitely one of those people for other fics, so don't take this as an insult.) And in such a slash-heavy fandom, writing explicit HET is kind of this weird... almost... deliberate provocation. You know? Am I making sense?
Anyway I was looking forward to messing with people the teeniest bit, making them read some slightly hard things that maybe they wouldn't know what to think about... But the process of writing it was just HARD. ARGH. It coincided with too many bad things for me and psmithery. We put it off for as long as we could and then it sort of broke me for a couple of days.
I'm better, obviously, and it actually helped me write my pthon entry I think, but there's just the big part of me that's looking at our elaborate story diagram and the journey we've laid out and I just want to throw up my hands and write, like:
"Merlin, what are you doing on my doorstep in the rain in the middle of the night? You'll catch your death of cold!" Arthur bundled Merlin in and gave him a blanket after Merlin shucked out of his wet clothes.
"I love you, and I've always loved you, Arthur!" he said.
"Oh Merlin, I love you as well!" Arthur said.
Then they kissed and had sex. And the next day they came out to everyone and everyone was happy for them. Then a few years later they got married. Arthur wore a white tux. "You're a dirty liar, Pendragon," Merlin said, looking him up and down.
Arthur waggled his eyebrows. "Wait 'til you see what I've got on underneath. It's all in white, too."